Thursday, August 06, 2009

32, I think...

So we're now at month 32. Big deal. We have about another 60 or so to go so it almost seems pointless to keep counting.

This past month Shawn and I have been reeling from some news that we were not expecting. People we trusted took that trust and violated it in one of the most horrible ways you can imagine. We've been heartbroken and just devastated. I have not felt this low since my mom passed away, yeah, it's been that bad.

We're slowly emerging from the ashes as we figure out what our next steps are. Even though our faith has been shaken to the core, out of this madness we have seen generosity beyond compare. And that has made things a bit better.

We do have a few rays of sunshine in our lives, it's not all storm clouds. Our dear friends K1 and K2 have announced wonderful news yesterday. We couldn't be happier for you both! Another ray of sunshine are our friends M and M, even though I don't think we'll ever get to China, I'll be eternally grateful that we were brought together.


M and M said...

Holy Cow!! I didn't even realize that it was our LID today until I read it here!

I am sorry you have been through the ringer. It sucks like crazy. I wish I had some words of wisdom for you.

We miss you terribly...

3D said...

It is utterly awful...virtual hugs are not enough.

Keep smilin!

Catherine said...

More than anything...big, huge ((hugs)) friend. Squeezing you tight. So sorry for all that you've been through. Wish you were closer to give those hugs in person.

Love you friend.

Happy 32

Kayce said...

I'm so sorry for what you guys have been going through, so not okay. Know you are in my prayers. Keep the faith.

Michele said...

I can only hope that the tides will turn in your favor soon. It just has to. You are in my thoughts.

Kathy and Joel said...

You are both loved so much and if you knew how often you were thought about and talking about with kind hearts, you would be blown away.
Nothing about what you have been through is fair. Nothing. I want to make it better for you, but I don't know how. I want you to have everything wonderful that you deserve to have. I want you to feel some sense of peace in your life.

Rhonda said...

You have constantly been on our minds since it happened. I hope that everything turns out.

We miss you.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry you got burned in this. Totally completely unfair.

Kris said...

i may have said this once before: the day will come when the counting is done- and that will be a very, very good day.

your baby will come. i have total and complete faith in that.

ride on the faith of others if you must to get there. if that's what it takes. coast on that.

either way, at the end of this, a child waits.

and along the way, you have us nut jobs in it with you, holding you up or cheering you on.

whatever you decide, always always always with you. xoxo dear friend.

kerri said...

Watching CTV that night, my heart broke, sunk, I can't believe there are people like that out there.
My thoughts go out to you, I can't even find the words.
As you figure out where your next steps are taking you, were here, always in your corner.

Alyson & Ford said...

Sorry for your pain and disappointment.

Alyzabeth's Mommy