Tick Tock

The building across the street from where I work houses the administrative offices of one of the largest banks in the country. Usually something I don't even think about. Today however, there was some cause for concern.

I got back from lunch and when I looked out the window and saw that the street had been blocked off by the police and the employees were all on the street. A few minutes later there were two huge firetrucks in front of the building and mine. One of my co-workers went outside to try to find out what was going on. Turns out there was a bo*mb threat. Two bo*mb squads were called in to diffuse the situation (figuratively and literally). Made for an interesting afternoon that's for sure.

There was no need to panic though. Turns out the culprit was nothing more than an alarm clock.

Overwhelmed

I am feeling completely and utterly overwhelmed by the amount of support I received over the past couple of days. I cried as I read every post and email. Thank you so much!

Like many of my fellow bloggers, I sometimes feel the need to censor myself just in case the wrong people are reading my blog. I didn't want to post about certain things in my life just in case. After much thought, I think it's ok to go ahead and post about some of the frustrations I've been feeling because, the people I worried about aren't worth worrying about anymore.

One of the biggest frustrations in my life recently has been work. The past couple of years have been tough. We got a new management team and ever since then it's been downhill. The axe has been falling left, right and centre. I thought I was safe but last year, just after Shawn and I decided to start our adoption process I was told that my position was being axed but there was another position that was opening up so I could take that one or I could be out the door. After talking to Shawn, I decided to take the job even though it was a lower level than the one I had because it was a job that would pay the bills until we got the baby. At the time of course, we were still under the impression the whole process was going to be quick.

I went over and things went well. Then my manager decided to take early retirement. In the great wisdom that our management team has, rather than try to find someone who is experienced and knows how to be a manager they decided to hire someone right out of school with no management experience and no people experience. It's been nothing short of an excruciating experience with her. I won't go into detail here, I don't want my stomach to get into knots over this while I'm at home. Let me just say, it's been really bad and of course I'm the one with the problem, even though I've worked with two other managers at the same organization and never had a problem with either of them.

I'm really mad at myself more than anything. I let her get to me and that makes me upset at myself. I try to tell myself that it's just a job, just a paycheck, but my personality isn't like that. When I see things that aren't right, I get very upset. I'm working on it though, I will try to not let work get to me like that again. It's just a job, it's not my real life.

This past weekend as well marked the 9 month anniversary since my mom passed away. I haven't been able to handle it very well. God I miss her so much. I wish she was here to hold my hand.

Happy Friday!

At least it is for me. I decided the best way to avoid a bad day at work and end my two week streak of bad days, is not go so I took tomorrow off so today is my Friday.

Earlier this week my PC went crazy on me. It kept saying a file was missing and needed to be rebooted with the disc. So I called my own personal Geek Squad aka, Shawn. He took one look at it and said, "Uh oh". That does not sound good to me, the layperson. Basically, my laptop was on the verge of dying. It was touch and go for a while, we weren't sure if Shawn was going to be able to save it. In the end Dr. Shawn was able to resuscitate the laptop but all my data was gone. Everything, all my documents, pictures, music. Pictures wasn't too much of an issue since we have all that backed up on a separate hard disc drive. As for documents, well, nothing too important, only things like our wills, my resume etc. Nothing that really important. I think I need a new laptop.

Mental note to self: Your computer sucks, back up everything!

Wish this could've been my day.

Today was a really warm day. The kind of day where you don't want to work, just be outside in the backyard in a comfy lounge chair with a nice glass of lemonade and a good book. Instead, I was at work. Enough said.

When I looked out out the window after I got home this is what I saw. I found it hilarious because that's exactly what I wanted to be doing. I really needed this pick up, work was not good. It hasn't been good in about 7 days (work days). I'm ready for another vacation. Hanging out on my fence sounds like a good plan to me.

Ice, Ice Baby

I'm not referring to diamonds either. As a result of the snow storm we had last week, there's a huge chunk of ice clinging on to the side of the CN Tower. It's about 150 feet high. This piece of ice is now holding a good portion of downtown hostage. Part of the Gardner Expressway (a major highway) was closed earlier this week as a precaution. Nobody knows if this piece will eventually melt off slowly as the weather gets warmer or if it will plummet down to earth. I work directly across the street from the CN Tower. Would it be wrong for me to hope that the piece of ice will fall off the tower, fly around it, make it's way across the street and hit my building? I don't want anyone to get hurt, I just want to have a couple of days off that's more than just the weekend.