Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Today...

...was not a good day. It felt like everybody at work wanted something from me and I just don't have it in me to give. It's all I can do just to get out of bed in the morning, never mind function. I just wanted to yell at everyone to back off and leave me alone. What's most difficult is that my world has been turned upside down but it hasn't for everyone else. All I want to do is sit on my couch with my blanket and my tv. At least with the tv I can focus on the images in front of me and I don't have to think too much and I especially don't have to think about how much I've lost. I had two meltdowns today at work and one major one when I got home from work when I saw more sympathy cards.

I have to admit that I have the most supportive and understanding husband in the world. Shawn has totally picked up the slack for me. I just don't have the energy to do anything and he has not asked me to lift one finger for anything. If he sees that I'm doing something he lets me finish and doesn't try to take over. If I ask him for anything he does it for me. He's been my rock through everything, I don't know what I would've done without him.

4 comments:

Mark & Michelle said...

I am SO sorry to hear that you had a crappy day...

Glad to hear that Shawn is a great support for you...

I hope you are feeling better soon, but at the same time, sometimes you don't want to feel better - not just yet...if that makes any sense.

Doris & Dan Clark said...

I hope each day get better. One moment at a time is best. Do what you can and that is all. Shawn sounds amazing and I wish you continued strength and courage. It is so hard but you will make it. Take it one step at a time.

Keep smilin!

Natolino said...

I am sorry that you did not have a good day! Know that is perfectly normal and expected.
It's one day at a time, sometimes an hour at the time!
God bless your husband. You are lucky to have the support and friendship of your spouse!

Lisa said...

Oh Delores I'm sorry you didn't have a good day. I'm sending you a cyber hug. ((((( Delores)))))

Just continue to take each minute, hour day at a time.

God bless your husband is right. What a great guy you have.

Drop me a line with your phone number if you'd like. I'm only up the 410 from you. We could do coffee sometime.

Love Lisa