...was not a good day. It felt like everybody at work wanted something from me and I just don't have it in me to give. It's all I can do just to get out of bed in the morning, never mind function. I just wanted to yell at everyone to back off and leave me alone. What's most difficult is that my world has been turned upside down but it hasn't for everyone else. All I want to do is sit on my couch with my blanket and my tv. At least with the tv I can focus on the images in front of me and I don't have to think too much and I especially don't have to think about how much I've lost. I had two meltdowns today at work and one major one when I got home from work when I saw more sympathy cards.
I have to admit that I have the most supportive and understanding husband in the world. Shawn has totally picked up the slack for me. I just don't have the energy to do anything and he has not asked me to lift one finger for anything. If he sees that I'm doing something he lets me finish and doesn't try to take over. If I ask him for anything he does it for me. He's been my rock through everything, I don't know what I would've done without him.