I always get confused as to how to spell Chanukah and after doing a bit of research on the web I found out why, there are quite a few ways to spell Chanukah including:
No wonder I'm so confused!
Shawn and I are in a unique situation. We are able to celebrate two sets of holidays with our families. In a way it works out because there is never an arguement over who's side of the family we should go to for the holidays. We've also had to learn about each other's different traditions and learn to integrate them into our home and life which I hope will help us to learn more about the baby's history, traditions and culture so we can easily integrate them into our home as well.
One thing I've realized though (sorry to keep going back to this) is that no matter what holiday we celebrate this year, it's not going to be easy. Last night I kept thinking about my mom and how she loved to light the candles with us on the menorah even though she wasn't Jewish. I almost started bawling right there in the middle of the restaurant. But being with family helped, they kept brining me back to the baby, and kept reminding me that even though things aren't great right now, we still do have a lot to look forward to.