Thursday, June 12, 2008

Adjusting

Thank you everyone for all your kind words, comments and emails. It's been a rough few days. I haven't stopped crying. The worst is in the morning when I come downstairs, when I get home from work and when I'm in bed, trying to sleep. I keep expecting to see Jazz greet me. I miss the sound of her pattering around, they way her tags would clink her bowl, even her deep belly meows telling me it was time to wake up in the morning. My girl was a very early riser, thanks in part to my mom.

At least I have the distraction of going to work, Shawn is now working from home. He's here on his own all day. He would check up on Jazz to see how she was doing, now he doesn't have that.

I've been thinking of the irony of the name of the blog. In the past few years, our family has been shrinking, not growing. I wonder sometimes if it will ever come to fruition.

24 comments:

Kristine and Shawn said...

Hugs, big HUGE hugs for you both...

amy said...

Im going through the same thing. I used to wake up from my naps (work night shift) and Lucy would know I was awake and bark. I miss her making her nest on the couch. Its still odd to think of her in the past tense!

3D said...

Your words break my heart. I wish I could give you a big hug.

Keep smilin!

Rhonda said...

Sending you a huge hug, dear friend.

Juliette said...

((((((((hugs))))))))

Kathy and Joel said...

I'm so sorry. You have been on my mind so much this week. Jazz has Cheetah with her and today, a new friend joined her there. We're having a tough time over here as well. Stay strong, my friend.

Kayce said...

{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}

Beth said...

Oh sweetie, I am so sorry you are hurting. HUGS and many many healing thoughts.

Janet said...

Hang in there, D, it will get better, I promise. This is so hard for you guys! I've been thinking about you and wondering how you are doing. My thoughts are with you.

kris said...

I think of you so often and know the ache of this loss is one of the toughest any of us go through...

Don't be fooled by the illusion that those you love are 'gone'. Every single thing in life is temporary, including separation by death- your angels are watching over you, and I have no doubts you will see them again one day.

As for your future and you're family growing- it starts first in your heart- it will come to fruition, of this I am certain.

Tracey & Mike said...

I'm so sorry about your Jazz. Thinking of you and sending you a big hug.

kerri said...

Huge hugs, I'm so sorry...

Catherine said...

((hugs)) friend. So hard to adjust. Love ya.

redmaryjanes said...

I feel so sad reading this post. I am sorry that you are having such a hard time, you are such a warm and caring person.
I will be thinking of you.

kerri said...

Thinking of you...
Hugs..

Lisa said...

Thinking of you and wishing I could take away the hurt.

Snowflowers Mum said...

so sorry. we lost two of our pets just days before we left for China in 2005...it was tough on us and tough on our last dog, who I think felt terribly abandoned.

I hope that the pain is replaced with fond memories very soon

Hayley

jaj said...

I am truly sorry for your loss.

Michael & Tammy said...

So sorry to hear about Jazz. It is soooo hard to lose a pet - sending you a big (((HUG))).

kerri said...

Dolores, I'm thinking of you.

Thanks for your kind words, I so appreciated them, they really helped. :)
Hugs...

Steffie B. said...

Thinking of you sweet girl.....you will be in my thoughts and prayers.

operationtigerlily said...

I'm so sorry about Jazz. I hope things have gotten better for you and hubby. I've been there, I know your pain.

Steffie B. said...

Hope you are doing well.....have a great week! ;)

kerri said...

Still thinking of you as I have "those days".
Tell me it gets better....
:(
Hugs going out to you...